I cannot believe it has been a year..

Today was a hard day.  Though surrounding myself with loving family made it a lot easier, today was still a rough day.  These were my thoughts on December 8th of last year after losing my dad to brain cancer.   I still feel very much the same.  It is unfair and completely sucks.  And there is still a daddy-sized hole in my heart.  

"After a 6-year battle with Brain Cancer a brilliant, kind, and caring man was taken from this world.  My hero, my inspiration, my dad.  True he is not in any more pain, but that does not make any of this easier.  This is so freakin’ unfair.

So how do you move on…you DON’T.  There will always be a daddy-sized hole in my heart.  This F’in sucks; there’s no other way to describe it.  It just sucks!  Whether you are 5, 28, or 50, losing a parent or any loved one for that matter is not easy.

Daddy,

Thank you for being you. 

Thank you for growing a beard for me every winter when I was little because I thought is was cool (even though mom was not a huge fan of it).

Thank you for sitting through all of those Hanson concerts.

Thank you for the “just because” Dairy Queen runs.

Thank you for always being there for me.

Thank you for your love.

Thank you for EVERYTHING.

This is not good-bye; this is only until.

I love you Daddy.  You are and will be missed."

Today we lit a lantern in memory of my dad